i somehow ended up crying myself to sleep last night. crazy thing is that nothing happened to upset me. every time i try to go to sleep my mind starts racing. i typically try counting backwards po-russki but sometimes i just can't focus enough on that. last night i started thinking that we needed to discuss and decide if we want to send collin to pre-k this fall. i have mixed feelings about it but it's not something we need to put off until the last minute. at any rate, the more i thought about that the more i started thinking that it is just a little over a year until he starts school. when i think about that i literally feel nauseous. i know it's a wonderful thing to have a healthy, super smart little boy and that he will continue to grow up. i also know that i can't hold onto him forever but i'm just not ready to let go. that's my issue, of course, and i'll just have to figure out a way to deal w/it w/o letting him sense that i have any concerns/negative emotions about it. guess i just need to enjoy him every day...even when he drives me INSANE. :) how did my boy grow up so fast??