terrible day

so yesterday was terrible and today's started out the same way. hopefully things will get better b/c i don't know if i can deal w/another day like that today.

so, yesterday morning jared gets up to take collin to his parents' for bfast and for a visit. it is unusual for jared to go out w/collin by himself (horrible, i know, b/c he's 2) but it's just not something he's ever really done. at any rate, i was already kind of worried b/c it was just out of the norm. so, as collin and jared leave i'm standing at the door to tell them goodbye and collin starts crying b/c he doesn't understand why i'm not coming too. he kept turning around to see me and ended up falling and scraping his knee pretty badly. jared gives me a really hard time about this and says it's my fault b/c i should have just gone in and let them go. maybe he's right. jared brought collin back in and i cleaned up his knee and gave him a deigo band aid (sticker) and they left again.

when jared leaves to come home he calls me and tells me not to freak out but that collin fell at his parents and has a cut on his knee and a pretty nasty scratch on his chin. he said that it happened on or around his parents' swing set. he also said that his mom was really upset and said that i was never going to let collin come back b/c he doesn't see them that often and when he does he comes home all banged up. so...about 30 min later they get home and collin has blood on his shirt, a nasty, nasty looking scratch on his chin and a cut on his knee above his band aid from the earlier scrape. i go to clean him up and give him another bath. other than a few tears from the stinging on his knee in the bathwater he seemed pretty okay. he had a nap and woke up in a good mood.

the day seemed to turn a little after his nap. we had lunch and then he and i went to borders to hang out to give jared a little down time. we had a good time (collin counted snails on a book - yay!!!). we came home and played, also good, and then planned a trip to the park w/friends.

we picked up dinner on the way and ate at the picnic shelter. while i was getting collin's food cut up he slipped between the table and the bench and hit the back of his head. he freaked out and it took a LONG time to get him to calm down but, finally, he did. we ate and then headed to the playground. he played for a while w/o any problem. then, all of the sudden, he decided the most fun thing there to do would be to walk up and down the stairs. he was doing well but then missed the bottom step and did a somersault landing on the mulch of the playground. i didn't see any scrapes, bumps, etc... but i think it scared us all. he then proceeded to fall 2x before we ended up leaving. not sure if he was tired or what but i just felt really badly b/c i felt like maybe there was something i could have done...like i wasn't watching him closely enough. i know he's a toddler and that he'll fall down and get hurt and, as jared reminds me all of the time, that he's a little boy so he's going to do all kinds of daredevil kind of stuff and fall and get hurt. still hard to see.

i must say that i don't want to head out the door today b/c i'm afraid that w/my luck that i'll end up in the ER w/him by the end of the day. i know i can't wrap him up in bubble wrap or something but, right now, i really want to. :-(